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You Didn’t Come This Far Only to Come This Far

Despite recent bouts of COVID, depression, and elevated stress, I had occasion over this holiday season to reflect on everything for which I’m grateful, and the list is long.

Yes, 2023 was a challenging year. I struggled with severe anxiety attacks that began in September 2022 and continued until mid-August 2023. They left me debilitated for the first hour or two every morning and were often accompanied by bouts of depression, some lasting weeks. There were days when I thought they would end me, but I live by two mottos: “life might knock me down, but it can’t keep me down” and “you didn’t come this far only to come this far.”

Dido I’ve been grappling with the demons of depression and anxiety for over 45 years. For most of that time, I’ve been alone in my fight, but on this occasion, I had the help of three amazing women—my wife, my therapist, and my favorite singer on the planet, Dido (never say music doesn’t heal a broken soul). They are all my heroes.

‌‌My wife planned and booked every step of our June trip to Niagara Falls and the Thousand Islands, culminating in a visit to Boldt Castle on my birthday. It was a fantastic week. Travel does wonders for mental health.

Canadian Horseshoe Falls and Table Rock      Evon and Phil at Niagara Falls

Phil at "Famous Boldt Castle on Heart Island" sign   Boldt Castle

It was also in June when my detective tale, “Pearl of Great Price,” was published in Hard-Boiled and Loaded with Sin by Hawkshaw Press. That also helped loosen anxiety’s grip on me.

Hard-Boiled and Loaded with Sin Book Cover

Testing the Prisoner Front Cover

At the same time, plans to release the second edition of Testing the Prisoner were coming to fruition. By early June, the book was fully re-edited by yours truly and two months later, artist pal Scott Barnett produced a cover that not only popped but exploded.

The book was released on September 18th. What happened next was nothing short of amazing.

First, I ran an Early Reviewers giveaway on LibraryThing, which resulted in five stellar reviews from the happy winners.

Best Book Award Finalist LogoIn October, after purchasing a copy of Testing the Prisoner from my table at the Easton Book Festival, writer and publisher Angel Ackerman—current president of the Greater Lehigh Valley Writers Group—praised the book on her blog as well as Amazon and Goodreads. By this time, Testing the Prisoner had been named as one of five finalists in American Book Fest’s 2023 Best Book Awards (Horror Category).  Wow!

I was then contacted by horror writer Carson Buckingham who offered to review the book for Hellnotes.com. I sent a paperback to her in mid-November and shortly after Thanksgiving, she posted her effusive review, giving Testing the Prisoner six out of five stars!

As of this writing, I’m on the final round of re-edits to By Your Side, the second edition of which is slated for release on February 5, 2024 with a new cover by the aforementioned brilliant artist, Scott Barnett. The official launch will happen at Farpoint SF Convention in Pikesville, MD.

As I sit here on December 23rd, the house decked out for Christmas, anticipating a glorious week off from work and all of the writing and editing ahead of me, I do indeed have plenty to be grateful for. I hope you do as well. If you’re struggling, remember that you didn’t come this far, only to come this far. Life will knock you down at times, but problems and setback are temporary. Please don’t let them keep you down.

I wish you peace, love, and joy this holiday season and throughout the new year!

A Christmas of Galactic Proportions

For fellow readers of vintage science fiction, I happened upon this wonderful blog post showcasing the Christmas covers of Galaxy SF Magazine from 1951-1960.

Here are a few examples from 1956 (L) and 1960 (R):

   

And two from the Magazine of Fantasy and Science Fiction from January 1962 (L) and January 1969 (R).

    

On Santa, Elves, and Angels…

Over the River and Through the Woods (front cover)We often hear about the mystery of Christmas. In  Over the River and Through the Woods, we not only have a mystery, but a detective noir tale set in Santa’s North Pole workshop complete with a hilariously crass elven anti-heroine named Tink.

“I didn’t write Tink; I think Tink wrote herself. Her voice was so loud, strong, funny, and irreverent, I had to put it on a page. She may end up in a full-length novel, because I’m not sure she’s done talking yet.” —Abigail Drake, author of “Tink”

Speaking of mysteries, a peculiar woman on the street catches the attention of the protagonist in Maryalice Meli’s story and we soon learn that appearances can be deceiving…

“When I think of Christmas holiday celebration, I think of Wampum, PA. This little Lawrence County town has the biggest parade of any outside Pittsburgh. My story is set at a Christmas parade though the story itself of an elderly woman outsmarting the angel of death has nothing to do with the parade.” —Maryalice Meli author of “The Christmas Angel”

Finally, Amy Morley reminds us that regardless of whether he’s flesh and blood or merely a myth, Santa Claus is a symbol of hope and virtue worth believing in—at any age.

“This is longer than you wanted. But I had to give the whole story in order for it to make sense.

I wrote “Reminiscing on the Nostalgia of Happier Times” as part of a writing exercise when I took a poetry class with regional poet Bill Boggs back in the fall of 2011. The prompt was to write about a memory, and to practice using imagery. As I sat down to write I remember hearing jingle bells in my memory.

The fall of 2011 was actually a very sad time in my life due to unexpected challenges that turned my life upside down. During these months I had numbed myself from feeling anything just so I could get through it without crying every second, so this was a very difficult assignment for me. I was trying not to remember anything at all as a defense mechanism from feeling additional remorse from what I thought at the time was a life full of regrets. But when I thought about what to write, I kept hearing jingle bells.

Those bells brought me back to a memory from November 1993, when I was 15 years old and I met a “Sidewalk” Santa at the South Street Seaport in New York City. I was a sophomore in high school and my marching band had performed in the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade earlier that day. We had to wake up at 2AM so I was sleep deprived, so I am not sure what was real and what I had imagined from this memory.

But from this memory, I heard jingle bells. Santa was walking along the pier and ringing a bell. The bells were haunting, and I was drawn to them, almost hypnotized, and I felt as though they were calling me. I walked up to Santa and out of nowhere I told him that even though I was 15 years old, I still believed in him, and asked him what I had to do to get people to believe in me? I told him that it was impossible for people to believe in a mythical being, but somehow there are enough people in this world who continually believe and therefore keep him alive. Yet I was only 15 years old and I felt as though no one noticed me, no one thought I was important, no one believed that I would ever become someone of worth or recognition, but I knew that I was someone worthy. I knew I had talents and skills, I just didn’t know what they were, and I was afraid to even try to figure it out because I knew it would be useless since I felt discouraged and defeated all of the time. I told him that I just needed someone to believe in me. I asked him if he would believe in me since I still believe in him. He told me, “you keep believing in me and I will keep believing in you. And I promise you that things will change for you in the new year.”

And they did. A million different ways they did.

I wrote this poem when I was 32 years old. It was seventeen years after I met the real Santa Claus. I needed him at age 15 and then again at age 32. He was there for me both times; once in person or as a spirit even perhaps, and once again in my memory. Both times he was the one who believed in me, when I was alone, even when I didn’t believe in myself. Both times his presence in my life changed things so significantly that there’s no other explanation as to how he was able to do this, other than the fact that he was the real Santa Claus.” —Amy Morley

Proceeds from the sale of Over the River and Through the Woods benefit the Ligoner Camp and Conference Center, home of the Mindful Writers Retreat. We thank you for your support!

Over the River and Through the Woods (front cover) Over the River and Through the Woods (back cover)

Home for the Holidays

Over the River and Through the Woods (front cover)Traditionally, Thanksgiving and Christmas are holidays (hopefully) spent with family, enjoying their company and creating endearing memories. Several of the stories, essays, and poems in Over the River and Through the Woods focus on this theme—but the topics are diverse, ranging from an essay involving actor Alec Guinness to a story about a  magic bed; from a contemporary version of the Holy Family to a coming of age tale involving a lost diamond ring.

Read on as authors Ramona DeFelice Long, Michele Zirkle, Lori M. Jones, Jennifer Diamond, Cara Reinard, and Denise Weaver reveal the inspirations behind their contributions to our fantastic winter holiday anthology.

My essay, “The Bridge on the River Obi-Wan,” is based on a real Christmas Eve when my son was 11. My husband often worked holidays, so the merrymaking was usually left to me, and I wasn’t always very merry about it. This day, however, turned into a life lesson that stayed with me for years. Nearly a decade passed before I was able to craft an essay on what *I* learned that day while trying to teach my son. —Ramona DeFelice Long

Growing up, my grandparents bed seemed a magical place of arm-tickling and story-telling and I wanted to capture some of that rapturously sweet dream-time. Dreams are magical, especially when sleeping in this sleigh bed where more than visions of sugarplums dance in Ciara’s head… love lights up the dark and shines hope into her heart. —Michele Zirkle, author of “Magic Sleigh Bed”

When I was thinking about an idea for a Christmas story, I thought, what is Christmas all about? Although I know it’s not the correct answer, Mary and Joseph popped into my head. Obviously their miracle child is who [we] celebrate, but their stories are pretty amazing. So I wanted a story about a modern day Mary and Joseph and what would happen to them if they inadvertently stumbled upon a miracle.  —Lori M. Jones, author of “The Gift”

The spark for “Fathers and Daughters began with a memory from author Jennifer Diamond’s childhood. It bloomed from a simple story about a misplaced gift into the true tale of how a self-conscious, semi-self-centered thirteen-year-old looked at her family with a new viewpoint. By the end of that one Christmas day, she leaped into young adulthood and learned to appreciate the moments shared between fathers and daughters. —Jennifer Diamond

“Buon Natale,” which means Merry Christmas in Italian, is dedicated to my family. The poem captures our true day of celebration, Christmas Eve, which is marked by a huge meal known as The Feast of Seven Fishes. Both sides of my family have celebrated this bountiful dinner of no less than seven seafood dishes since I was a small child. As an adult, each year, my Aunt Reene and I switch off hosting this special occasion for whoever can attend—our table is never too full, our hearts are open to all—tis the true meaning of Buon Natale. I hope you enjoy my poem and that it brings you holiday cheer. —Cara Reinard

My essay, “Shaping Christmas,” is a reflection of how Christmas has been shaped for me through the particular influences of several women throughout my life. It has led to my awe and joy of the holiday season, focusing on faith, family, friends, and food. I am happy to share a Christmas cookie recipe from my beloved mother-in-law; it’s a family favorite. —Denise Weaver

Proceeds from the sale of Over the River and Through the Woods benefit the Ligoner Camp and Conference Center, home of the Mindful Writers Retreat. We thank you for your support!

Over the River and Through the Woods (front cover) Over the River and Through the Woods (back cover)